09 5 / 2014
don’t date anyone who doesn’t think hawkeye is a valuable member of the avengers
Words to live by
29 4 / 2014
This past weekend I headed up to Chicago for their Comic Con, C2E2. While I try to focus on the business side of things here on Tumblr, I wanted to share a very personal story.
You see, 12 years ago I discovered a band named Coheed and Cambria. 12 years ago I fell in love with the idea that music and a comic could go hand in hand, telling the same story but in such different ways. 12 years ago, I was a normal 15 year old.
3 years later, I was diagnosed with a rare form of bone cancer. I was taken into surgery and had part of my shoulder blade amputated in an attempt to stop the cancerous cells from spreading. My upper back was reconstructed(badly) and I was in for a rough recovery. You see, recovery is more than physical. You have to convince yourself that it’s going to be ok… You have to tell yourself that you can get up in the morning, that you can put your feet on the ground, and that you can stand up and face the day. Well, 9 years ago that was very difficult. I was a senior in highschool, the world was right ahead of me, and suddenly everything stopped. I fell into a depressed state, and was just going through the motions. I was doing the physical therapy they wanted me to but mentally I was checked out. One day my friends came over for Star Wars movie night and something clicked in my head. I knew I could do it. In that moment, a lyric was playing in my head. “Claudio, dear Claudio, I wish God damn it, we’ll make it if you believe”. It was then that I knew that if I just believed in myself, I would be ok. I changed it to “You’ll make it if you believe” and found myself muttering it any time I was down.
After my 5 year mark I started up Corsair’s Boutique in an attempt to chase my dream of being a fashion and costume designer. Every day is still a struggle. My back is almost constantly in pain. I have a giant scar taking up a good portion of my back. I can barely lift anything over 5 pounds as I dont have the muscle strength, and yet I continue to push forward. Why? Because… I’ll make it if I believe.
When I signed up for C2E2 I had a slight inkling that Claudio and Chondra would be attending, since Translucid was set to come out right before the convention. When they made the announcement I was overcome with joy and honestly a bit of anxiety. I wasnt sure I’d have the courage to tell them everything they had done for me.
Things never work out the way you expect. Friday we walked onto the show floor to finish getting our booth ready for the day and as we were walking to our aisle we saw Claudio. After calming my nerves I went up and asked him for a photo. I had heard stories of him being standoffish or really shy with fans but he proved that ALL wrong. I took my photo and he was perfectly sweet.
Saturday around 4:30 I go over to the BOOM! Studios booth to get in line. I end up behind this awesome guy who is (obviously) a fellow Child of the Fence. We chatted about what we’re getting signed and and I told him my idea which I thought was silly. My plan was to ask Claudio to personalize a piece of cardstock with the phrase that I used to help myself through recovery. My new friend thought it was a great idea and we agreed to take each others photos with Claudio and Chondra.
When my turn arrived I was nervous, I’m pretty sure I was shaking. It’s hard for me to tell people my story because I always feel bad about it for some reason. But there I was. All the planning went out the window when I started talking. I told Claudio and Chondra about my cancer, and my recovery, and the fact that it was exactly 9 years to the day when I had my surgery. Chondra held my hand, Claudio shook it, they both said the nicest things to me. It took a lot to not tear up at how kind they were. Claudio was happy to sign my paper, and while he was doing that I chatted to Chondra and gave her her presents. She LOVED her custom embroidered keywork bag and her Prise inspired cincher(though we both agreed she’d try it on later, when she wasnt pregnant). Claudio seemed to think the gifts were awesome and I finally looked down at what he had written and I could have burst into tears right there. It was perfect.
People always say to never meet your heroes. After this? I HIGHLY disagree with that statement :)